First of all I want to thank everyone for commenting on my baby's pictures. I know his adorable. LOL~ J/K he is. I really can't denied that.
I never though the feeling of been a mother would be like this. It does feel very surreal to me to have him in this world.
A year ago I was scared to be a mother. I don't know why, but, I guess I was selfish to think that way.
Now I'm very anxious to take care of him. I just want him home asap. During the hospital I would go visit him every feeding. I would held him and talk to him. And tell him about my day. He would listen, but in a sleepy way. Sometimes he would smile at me. I've notice he smiles a lot for been a newborn. That tells me that he does recognize my voice. The more, I got to visit him the more comfortable I will feel to hold him.
At first I was really shy around him. I don't know why but, he really does that to me sometimes.
Yesterday, I drop off his milk. I have be able to produce enough milk for two feedings. I'm so happy that I got my breast to produce more milk. At first it was a challenge to get some milk out. I would only produce a drop. Now I'm like a cow. LOL! milking them when they get full. I'm very technical when it comes for duties like this. I get focus on one thing until I successful finish the job.
I'm watching what I eat and tried to keep positive. My mom said if you get depress, you give sour milk. I really don't want that to happen. Especially, when joseph needs it.
Doctors, are saying he was born too small and skinny. That's why his in the incubator. I think he is a strong baby with a big appetite. Yes, he eats alot. The nurses told me yesterday that they have to change his eating schedule. Instead of 3 hours is 4 hours on every feeding. The nurse said that he is too small to be eating alot. But, my baby just have a big appetite for a small stature. lol!
I'm very happy his drinking my milk though. He seems to take anything I give him.
I love him so much. Will do anything for him. I never though I would love someone this much. I love been with him every minute I get the chance to see him. I miss him right now that I'm typing this blog. But, not to worry I will see him today. YAY!
he looks precious here. SO CUTE!